There’s this new show on Netflix called Trese and it features Filipino mythology and folklore. Watch this video if you want to know more about it and if it’s actually worth it to watch.
So yah boy doesn’t just have ADHD, turns out I also have bipolar disorder. So now, my girlfriend and mother are freaking out over the diagnosis. Now it’s a bit shocking to be honest because I didn’t see it coming. Anyway, I can feel how limited I am because of my mental illness. Like I can’t work because I’m on strong meds from morning until evening. That’s why I made a choice to just be an ESL teacher. Now, what I’m earning from it is not enough so I’m thinking of streaming or starting a Youtube channel. I don’t really know because I thought by this time I would’ve had figured out what to do with my life. I just know I have to figure out how I’m gonna earn some money.
Things has gotten better for me for the past year compared to the last few years. After 9 years I finally graduated uni and got a degree. I also started getting regular treatment for my ADHD which is great. This is the longest time I have continuously getting treatment. Sure it took a lot of mental breakdown and self-destruction but I’m finally getting help. Life does get better if you stick long enough. Now my main problem is, I have the wrong degree. You see, I currently work as a site inspector for a construction company despite the fact that I have a degree in BS Psychology. My main problem now is that I don’t earn enough money to live independently. I only earn about $247 a month. I’ve been trying to land online jobs part-time but there hasn’t been any luck. The only job I can actually do is ESL teaching, but I don’t have the equipment for it. And then another problem happened, my doctor doesn’t want me to stay up any time longer than 10 pm. So now I have a bed time and my parents are telling me to stop finding an extra job. So now I’m just lost. I have so much free time and I can do so much more but… now I just feel powerless. Because I know that the right thing to do is to listen to my doctor and just focus on myself. But then again, I am so delayed in life that I have to work 10x harder just to be on the same level as my peers.
